Confused…
As always I’m confused.. Confused of what should be and what should not be.. Confused of how it should be and how it should not be.. Confused of why and why not.. I’ve never been this confused my whole life.. I still feel like I don’t know him…though I feel so much for him.. He once said to me that all he wanted was to love and be loved and he never thought its this tough.. He’s right… I also never thought it would be this tough..
I told my friends about my worries and of course, yet again, they think I’m thinking way too much.. I told them my fears and insecurities and they reminded me that it’s not me at all to be like that which I already know.. I just don’t remember how it came to this point.. We started out cool.. We were sweet and it seemed like we’ll never get enough of each other…but now things have changed and I don’t think it’s for the better.. More and more things are getting crazy.. We would always argue when we’re not together and then forget all about it once we see each other again which scares me because we never get to talk about our issues and they’re all piling up at the back of my head.. It’s hard and it hurts everytime I think about them but I can’t force him to talk about those things.. He always tells me that he’s never good with words but I want him to be able to open up to me and I still don’t know how to make him do that.. Until now…I’m confused.. :(
